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| Tambourine |
[08 Jun 2007|03:25pm] |
hello. i'm alive.
i feel like as i'm sitting in this messy room, avoiding all aspects of real life, that i just want to be swallowed by gerriely's dirty bras, crumpled bedsheets, scattered pillows, plastic dry cleaning garment covers, half-drunken 24 oz. cups of water, magazine stacks, loose coins and assorted emptied pocket elements. there's this overwhelming sense of swishy suffocation, but it's still comfortable. i'm moving on past people and moving forward quite admirably in life but in my own home, my literal pathway is muddied. my legs are held back and my back lays on an unleveled surface far too often.
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| how it just flowed |
[15 Aug 2006|05:24am] |
my brother's thirty years old now. and his second kid, micaela jaelin, is scheduled to be born sometime tonight/tomorrow in the am. it's weird cause i still see him as my cool brother in his twenties taking me to barber shops and teaching me things.
my ears are so clogged and i'm going loco.
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| he said meet me for a drink thing |
[30 Jun 2006|03:47pm] |
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i just realized how much carrie bradshaw fuckin annoys me, but at the same time, reminds me of myself immensely. no i take that first part back. i love her, i really do, but i think she could've easily avoided her 6yrs. of stress.
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| mon amour tokyo |
[07 Jun 2006|06:20am] |
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i can't date a guy who thinks tokyo is in china.. can i? no, no i couldn't. not really anyway. actually ew at dating all together.
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| bigups to sonmi for this one |
[01 Jun 2006|03:33pm] |
okay, so, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sonmi was nice enough to set me up with a syndicated account for my other blog. it's ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/syndicated.gif) neikoji. you can add it to your friends list like any other journal and my updates will show up on your friends page so you don't have to go directly to the site. the catch is that the entries will only last two weeks on the syndicated account, but they'll remain on the regular site here, so if you want to comment i would advise you to comment on the site itself or else your comments will be deleted with the entry eventually since they're only temporarily placed there. :)
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| good news from below |
[22 May 2006|04:36am] |
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the consuming orgasm has returned. you know the kind when your muscles sort of give out on you for a few seconds? yeah that kind. generally that's been the only kind i've personally been familiar with, but for the past week my penis has been somewhat under the weather. i don't even think that's the right way to put it. whutever, it seems to be improving and getting back to its old self so let's all give it a gracious round of applause. but not too much cause it might get all weird on me again.
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| correctly picked finally |
[17 May 2006|09:07pm] |
i love her so much i am so happy. i picked her out (brooke too, i won't lie) at the very beginning as being the best and my favourite and now she's america's next top model. i am heaving and sobbing with such happiness.
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| face with tears |
[12 May 2006|10:07pm] |
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i just cried for the first time in like a year. i cried my little heart out. i'm so emotional right now and i don't know what happened to make me like this today. i need someone, i think. i'm so lost right now and it's scary to admit it. i'm so lost.
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| uhh, hbo on demand is on pause for this |
[08 May 2006|02:40am] |
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one of my favourite family group scenes on six feet under, aside from the bonfire, is when claire's friend anita, george, ruth, nate, maya and david were all in the kitchen, and george and anita were discussing the importance of studying history. for some reason that scene always touched me and reminded me of my own family.
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| attn |
[27 Apr 2006|05:27am] |
neikoji.com/wilts
i will be primarily updating on there from now on.
i reserve this journal, however, for more personal entries.
i need a space to share one side of me, versus all.
there will be a livejournal feed to add to your friend's list,
so that you can easily see my updates, rather soon.
for now i'd love it if you checked out the site. :)
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| beard and broccoli |
[14 Apr 2006|05:53am] |
i love that you can get to a level of success where people will act in taking pictures of you eating broccoli.
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| my opinion for this cycle |
[13 Apr 2006|06:07pm] |
since two of my orignal picks are already gone, i'll be pulling for brooke out of my remaining top three. i really like danielle too, though.
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| the loss of an hour and the loss of things greater |
[02 Apr 2006|05:10am] |
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i just realized that the two most loving elements that i've had in my life are gone now, and neither died naturally. my grandmother's emergency surgery didn't go well and it was a family decision to pull the plug and not let her go on for another day or two, and my cat was put to sleep. after my grandmother died i knew that i'd never be loved uncondtitionally again. she was the only person i had in my life, or will ever have, that actually loved me with real love. the closest i have now to that is maybe my brother, but he's got the selfish properties of his personality so that his love comes from a different place, which is how more than most of us are. plus he's got a wife and a baby which removes him from any other full connections. my cat's death also brought this weight on my heart because i knew i'd never come in contact with anyone as sweet or genuine like that in my life. i actually found that in a feline, and the emotion was so human. everyone everyone everyone in my life is so sadly opposite to those two elements, so much so that i feel i'm completely in this on my own now. i know i always was, but it's a scary feeling to, only recently, come up blank when i ask myself "who do i have?"
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| i'm probably not going to explain this right |
[01 Apr 2006|03:50pm] |
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i had the hottest dream. i was taking a piss in my bathroom with the window was open and it was facing an imaginary backyard or something. there were like four plumbers i think doing some work, which didn't make sense, but one of them was staring at me and we started talking and we were both giggling. then he came a little closer and stared some more. i said something like "keep looking, i'm an exhibitionist!" and he laughed and told me to meet him in the bushes. it was the longest imaginary pee.
when i woke up there was a plumber in my room with my landlord, trying to fix the waterline because the upstairs appartment was complaining. i don't really know. then he left my room and i went to pee. my bathroom window happened to be open, and it was directly facing his parked car. he got in the car as i was going but i didn't glance to see if he was looking because he wasn't as appealing as the one in my dream.
i live the life of a werido.
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| let's play which one does not belong |
[29 Mar 2006|04:32am] |
taken sometime in september last year. i've been going through some old stuff and getting rid of things, in the fashion of spring cleaning, and i stumbled across this gem. it's me (fourth) and my brother (second) with our far-out-in-long-island cousins. that day we joked about how we each seemed to have a matching one, but i'm still from a completely different planet. oh, and expect a few more nostalgic posts like this.
i do realize it's eist and not iest. no one got it so i've since rearranged the letters.
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